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  ‘Well, bye then,’ her husband calls, and the autumn sun catches the top of his still-boyish crop, illuminating him with a halo, the light highlighting his six-foot-three frame.

  ‘Bye, Mum,’ her daughter shouts, as she runs down the steps.

  ‘Bye, Mummy.’ Finn, thrown by the change to his routine – his father taking them to school for once – juts out his bottom lip and flushes red.

  ‘Come on, little man.’ James steers him through the door: competent, authoritative; even, and she almost resents the fact she still finds this attractive, commanding. Then he smiles down at his boy and his entire face softens, for Finn is his weak spot: ‘You know you’ll enjoy it when you get there.’

  He slips his arm over his son’s shoulders and guides him down their neat, west London garden with its topiaried bay trees standing like sentinels and its path fringed with lavender, and away from her and out down the street.

  My family, she thinks, watching the perfect-looking trio go: her girl, racing ahead to embrace the day, all skinny legs and swishing ponytail; her boy, slipping his hand into his father’s and looking up at him with that unashamed adoration that came with being six. The similarity between man and boy – for Finn is a miniaturised version of his father – only magnifies her love. I have a beautiful boy and a beautiful man, she thinks, as she watches James’s broad shoulders – a one-time rower’s shoulders – and waits, more in hope than expectation, for him to look back and smile at her; for she has never managed to grow immune to his charisma.

  Of course, he doesn’t and she watches as they slip out of sight. The most precious people in her world.

  That world crumbles at 8.43 p.m. James is late. She should have known he would be. It is an alternate Friday: one in which he is holding a surgery, deep in his Surrey constituency, in a bright-lit village hall.

  When he had first been elected, they had stayed there every weekend: decamping to a cold, damp cottage that never quite felt like home, despite their extensive renovations. One election on, and it was a relief to give up the pretence that Thurlsdon was where they wanted to spend half their week. Lovely in the summer months, yes: but bleak in winter, when she would stare out at the bare trees fringing their hamlet garden, while James went about his constituency business, and try to placate their urban children, who wanted the bustle and distraction of their real, North Kensington home.

  They venture there once a month now, and James schleps down for the Friday surgery in the intervening fortnight. Two hours on a Friday afternoon: he promised to leave by six.

  He has a driver now he is junior minister, and should have been back by seven-thirty – traffic permitting. They are supposed to be going to friends for a kitchen supper. Well, she says friends. Matt Frisk is another junior minister: aggressively ambitious in a way that doesn’t sit well with their set where success is understood as inevitable but naked ambition considered vulgar. But he and Ellie are near neighbours and she can’t easily put them off again.

  They said they would be there by eight-fifteen. It is ten past now – so where is he? The October evening creeps against the sash windows: black softened by the glow of the street lamps, autumn stealing in. She loves this time of year. It reminds her of fresh starts: running through the leaves in Christ Church Meadows as a fresher, giddy at the thought of new worlds opening up to her. Since having children, it has been a time to nest; to cosset with log fires, roast chestnuts; brisk, crisp walks and game casseroles. But now, the autumn night is taut with potential. Footsteps totter down the pavement and a woman’s laugh rings out, flirtatious. A deeper voice murmurs. Not James’s. The footsteps rise and fall; die away.

  She presses redial. His mobile rings out then clicks to voicemail. She jabs the sleek face of her phone – rattled at her loss of customary self-control. Dread tightens her stomach and for a moment she is back in the chill lodge of her Oxford college, the wind whistling through the quad, as she waits for the payphone to ring. The look of sympathy from a college porter. The chill fear – so intense in that last week of her first summer term – that something still more terrible was going to happen. Aged nineteen and willing him to call, even then.

  Eight-fourteen. She tries again, hating herself for doing this. His phone clicks straight through to answerphone. She plucks at a piece of imaginary lint, rearranges her friendship bracelets and glances critically at her nails: neatly filed, unvarnished, unlike Ellie’s gleaming gelled slicks.

  Footsteps on the stairs. A child’s voice. ‘Is Daddy back?’

  ‘No – go back to bed.’ Her tone comes out harsher than she intends.

  Emily stares at her, one eyebrow raised.

  ‘Just climb back into bed, sweetheart,’ she adds, her voice softening as she chases her daughter up the stairs, heart quickening as she turns the corner and bundles her under the covers. ‘You should be settling down, now. He won’t be long.’

  ‘Can he come and say goodnight when he gets in?’ Emily pouts, impossibly pretty.

  ‘Well, we’re going out – but if you’re still awake . . .’

  ‘I will be.’ Her daughter’s determination – the set of her jaw; the implacable self-belief – marks her out as her father’s daughter.

  ‘Then I’m sure he’ll come up.’

  She gives her a quick peck on the forehead, to curb further arguments, and tucks the duvet around her. ‘I don’t want you out of bed again, though. Understand? Cristina’s babysitting just like normal. I’ll send him up when he arrives.’

  Eight-seventeen. She won’t ring to check. She has never been the sort of wife who behaves like a stalker but there is something about this complete silence that chills her. Usually so good at communication, this just isn’t like him. She imagines him stuck on the M25, working his way through his papers in the back of his car. He would call, text, send an email: not leave her waiting – the au pair hanging around the kitchen, keen for them to disappear so that she can curl up on the sofa and have the house to herself; Sophie’s carefully touched-up face becoming a little less perfect; the flowers bought for the Frisks wilting in their wrapping, on the table in the hall.

  Eight twenty-one. She will call the Frisks at half past. But that deadline comes and still she doesn’t ring. Eight thirty-five, thirty-six, thirty-seven. Aware that it’s bad form to do so, at eight-forty she sends Ellie Frisk a brief, apologetic text explaining that something has cropped up in the constituency and they are terribly sorry but they won’t be able to make it, after all.

  The Times has a piece on Islamic State by Will Stanhope but the words of her old college contemporary wash over her. It might as well be a story about dinosaur astronauts, read to Finn, to the extent to which it engages her. For every part of her is attuned to one thing.

  And there it is. The sound of his key in the door. A scrape and then a hiss as the heavy oak eases open. The sound of his footsteps: slower than normal, not his usual brisk, assertive tread. Then the thud of his red box being put down: the weight of responsibility abandoned for a while – as glorious a sound, on a Friday night, as the slosh of dry white wine being poured from a bottle. The jangle of keys on the hall table. And then silence, again.

  ‘James?’ She comes into the hall.

  His beautiful face is grey: his smile taut and not meeting his eyes where his light crow’s feet seemed deeper than usual.

  ‘You’d better cancel the Frisks.’

  ‘I have done.’

  He shrugs off his coat and hangs it up carefully, averting his face.

  She pauses then slips her arms around his waist – his honed waist that deepens to form a V; like the trunk of a sapling that burgeons outwards – but he reaches back and gently eases them away.

  ‘James?’ The cold in the pit of her stomach flares.

  ‘Is Cristina here?’

  ‘Yes.’

  ‘Well, send her to her room, will you? We need to talk in private.’

  ‘Right.’ Her heart flutters as she hears her voice come out clipped.


  He gives her another tight smile, and a note of impatience creeps into his voice, as if she is a disobliging child or, perhaps, a tardy civil servant. ‘Can you do it now, please, Sophie?’

  She stares back at him, not recognising his mood – so different to what she had expected.

  He massages his forehead with firm, long fingers and his green eyes close briefly, the lashes – disarmingly long – kissing his cheeks. Then, his eyes flash open, and the look he gives her is the one Finn gives when trying to pre-empt a telling off and plead forgiveness. It’s the look James gave her twenty-three years ago before confessing to the crisis that threatened to overwhelm him; that caused them to split up; that still, sometimes, causes her to shiver, and that she fears is about to rear its head again.

  ‘I’m sorry, Soph. So sorry.’ And it is as if he is carrying not just the weight of his job – under secretary of state for countering extremism – but responsibility for the entire government.

  ‘I’ve fucked up big time.’

  Her name was Olivia Lytton – though Sophie had always just thought of her as James’s parliamentary researcher. Five-foot-ten; twenty-eight; blonde; well connected; confident; ambitious. ‘I expect she’ll be dubbed the blonde bombshell.’ She tries for acerbic but her voice just comes out as shrill.

  The affair had been going on for five months and he had broken it off a week ago, just after the party conference.

  ‘It meant nothing,’ James says, head in hands, no pretence that he is anything other than penitent. He leans back, wrinkling his nose as he trots out another cliché. ‘It was just sex – and I was flattered.’

  She swallows: rage pushing against her chest, barely containable. ‘Well, that’s OK then.’

  His eyes soften as he takes in her pain.

  ‘There was nothing wrong with that part of us. You know that.’ He can usually read her so clearly: a skill honed over two decades, one of the things that bind them so closely. ‘I just made a foolish mistake.’

  She waits, poised on the sofa opposite, for her anger to subside sufficiently for her to speak civilly or for him to bridge the distance between them. To reach out a tentative hand, or at least offer a smile.

  But he is rooted there: head bowed, elbows on knees, fingers touching as if in prayer. At first, she despises this show of sanctimony – a Blairite trope; the penitent politician – and then she softens as his shoulders shake, just the once: not with a sob but with a sigh. For a moment, she sees her mother as her charming, rakish father confessed to yet another ‘indiscretion’. Ginny’s dry resignation – and then the quickly suppressed flash of pain in her marine-blue eyes.

  Perhaps this is what all husbands do? Sorrow surges, then anger. It shouldn’t be like this. Their marriage is different. Founded on love and trust and a sex life that she does her very best to maintain.

  She has made compromises in her life and, God knows, she took a huge leap of faith when they got back together; but the one certainty is meant to be that their relationship is solid. Her vision begins to blur, her gaze filming with tears. He looks up and catches her eye – and she wishes he hadn’t.

  ‘There’s something else,’ he says.

  Of course, he wouldn’t confess to an affair without a reason.

  ‘Is she pregnant?’ The words – ugly but necessary – discolour the space between them.

  ‘No, of course not.’

  She feels herself relax a little: no half-sibling for Emily and Finn. No proof of a liaison. No need to share him in any other way.

  And then he looks up with a grimace. Her nails bite into her palm in sharp crescents and she sees that her knuckles are ivory pearls thrusting through the red of her skin.

  What could be worse than some other woman having his child – or perhaps choosing to abort his child? Other people knowing: the affair a particularly juicy piece of gossip, dropped into the ear of a favoured few in the Commons tea rooms until it becomes general knowledge. Who knows? His colleagues? The PM? Other MPs’ wives? What about Ellie? She imagines her silly plump face alight with barely suppressed pity. Perhaps she recognises her lie of a text and already knows.

  She forces herself to breathe deeply. They can deal with this; move beyond it. They have experienced far worse, haven’t they? There is no crime in having a quick fling: it can be brushed over, quickly forgotten, absorbed. And then James says something that takes this to a more damaging, corrosive level; that strikes her in the solar plexus hard as she contemplates a scenario so terrible that she hadn’t quite seen it coming.

  ‘The story’s about to break.’

  SOPHIE

  22 October 2016

  Three

  It is the Mail that has the story. They have to wait until the first editions to learn quite how bad it is.

  The PM’s director of communications, Chris Clarke, is there: pacing the floor, phone jabbed to his ear or glued to his hand, his ratty face tense with anticipation; small eyes narrowed either side of a sharp nose that is dulled with the grease of too many takeaways and the grey exhaustion of countless early mornings and late nights.

  She cannot bear him. His estuarine twang; his self-importance; that strut – the strut of a short man for, at five-foot-nine, he is dwarfed by her husband. The knowledge that he is indispensable to the prime minister. ‘He has the common touch: keeps us in check, knows what we lack – and how to counteract that,’ James once said when she’d tried to articulate her instinctive distrust. She has no barometer by which to measure this former News of the World journalist, from Barking. Single, without children but apparently not gay, politics genuinely appears to consume him. In his late thirties, he is that unfathomable cliché: married to his job.

  ‘Fuck’s sake.’ He is skimming the story now on his iPad, while waiting for the fat wad of a Saturday paper to be delivered; mouth twisting in a sneer as if there is an acrid taste in his mouth. Sophie feels a surge of bile rise up as she catches the headline, ‘MINISTER HAS AFFAIR WITH AIDE’, then the standfirst: ‘PM’s friend in trysts in the corridors of power.’

  She skims the first paragraph, the words coalescing into something solid and impossible. ‘Britain’s most fanciable MP had sex with his female aide in a lift in the Commons, the Daily Mail can exclusively reveal.

  ‘James Whitehouse, a junior Home Office minister and confidant of the prime minister’s, conducted his affair with his parliamentary researcher in the Palace of Westminster. The married father-of-two also shared a room with blonde Olivia Lytton, 28, during the party conference.’

  ‘Well, that was fucking stupid.’ Chris’s voice cuts through the silence as she struggles to master her feelings and consider how to sound controlled and cogent. She cannot manage it and stands abruptly, revulsion swelling like a tide of sickness as she walks quickly from the room. Hidden in the kitchen, she leans against the sink – hoping the desire to throw up will ease. The chrome is cool to her touch and she concentrates on the shine and then on a picture by Finn: one of the few she has deemed good enough to be pinned to the fridge. It shows four stick figures with huge smiles, the father figure towering over the rest of them: 50 per cent taller than his wife; 100 per cent bigger than his son. A six-year-old’s view of the world. ‘My famly’ scrawled in magenta felt tip.

  Finn’s family. Her family. Tears brim but she blinks them back and touches her wet lashes to prevent her mascara smudging. No time for self-pity. She thinks of what her mother would do: pour herself a double whisky; take the dogs for a bracing, blustery walk along the cliffs. No dogs here. No remote coast path on which to lose one’s self, either: or hide away from the press who, if the past indiscretions of other ministers are anything to go by, will soon be circling outside their front door.

  How to explain this to the children, expecting to go out early to ballet and swimming? The cameras. Perhaps a reporter? Finn can be fobbed off – but Emily? The questions will be endless. But why are they there? Is Daddy in trouble? Who’s that lady? Mummy, why do they want a photo? Mum, are you cry
ing? Why are you crying, Mummy? Just thinking of it – the fact they will be exposed to this very public embarrassment and scrutiny; and that she will need to reassure them while the questions continue, incessant – makes her retch.

  Then there will be the snippets of information heard and only half-understood in the playground and the looks of pity or ill-disguised delight from other mothers. For a moment, she considers bundling the children into the car and driving them to her mother’s, in deepest Devon, hidden down endless, high-banked lanes. But running away implies guilt – and a lack of unity. Her place is here, with her husband. She fills a glass from the tap; takes a couple of sharp, hard swigs – and then walks back into the front room to discover how she can shore up their marriage and help to rescue his political career.

  ‘So – she’s a classic woman scorned?’ Chris Clarke is hunched forwards, scrutinising James, as if trying to find an understandable explanation. It strikes Sophie that perhaps he is asexual. There is something so cold about him: as if he finds human frailty inconceivable – let alone the messy foolhardiness of desire.

  ‘I had told her our fling was a mistake. That it was over. She’s not quoted directly, is she, so she can’t have gone to the papers?’

  ‘She works in Westminster. She knows how to get the story out.’

  ‘ “Friends of . . .”?’ James looks pained as he glances down at the reams of type about himself.

  ‘Exactly. “ ‘He used her. She thought it was a proper relationship but he treated her abysmally . . .’, a ‘friend’ of Miss Lytton said.” ’

  ‘I’ve read it,’ James says. ‘No need to go on.’